Car Drama!!!

Things have been just pure craziness!!! I've been up to my neck in school work. I've barely had time for anything besides writing papers and reading. Kevin has been such a hero! It's soo amazing. He has kept the night shift, ( Even though he hates it!) just so that he can watch Matty for me while I'm in school. He's been fantastic.

Matty has just blown into the terrible two's and has suddenly become very opinionated about EVERYTHING! He doesn't want that shirt or that cup or those shoes....There are some days when I want to just tear out my hair in frusteration. For the most part though, he is still his sweet little self.... just with a bit more "grrrrr".

My car broke down yesterday and that was a major ARGH!! sort of moment. It broke down on Highway 1 on my way to class. Thankfully Matty wasn't with me. I ended up leaving my car and walking home.... and it was not an easy walk. It was pretty much all up hill and I kept getting random pieces of glass gouging at my feet through my flip flops. Nonetheless I'm still feeling positive....Although I'm not sure why.... We're not going to be able to fix the car. The transmission blew and the transmission place said it will take at least 3000 to fix it. Kevin and I had already discussed the maximum amount of money that we can really afford to spend on fixing it and it definately wasn't 3000.

The one silver lining is that Kevin did buy a car a couple weeks ago so we're not suddenly carless.... the problem is that it's a stick and I can't drive a stick! So this weekend I'm going to try to dedicate myself to learning how to drive a stick..... Hopefully I'll catch on pretty fast- otherwise I'm pretty screwed. I need to be back in classes by Tuesday, so I have a very limited amount of driving practice time. AHHHH!!! I'm crossing my fingers and praying really loudly!

Hip Hip Hurray!!!!!

Hurray!!!! I got an A on my midterm!!!! I had stressed over this midterm until I was on the verge of a breakdown!!!!!! I researched and researched... I wrote and then rewrote... I was obsessed with the detail and attention that this midterm needed.... But when it's all said and done- I got an A!!!!! The teacher actually mailed our midterms to us. When I got mine back today, I did a little dance and Matty joined in even though he really wasn't quite sure why we were celebrating!!!! My cute little munchkin boy can cut a rug with the best of them!!! Especially when he's celebrating with his mommy!!!!

An ode to my beloved Chex Mix......

As of yesterday, I have become enlightened yet once again to wonders of Chex Mix...... I brought a bunch of food to class because I was one of the designated snack people. I just grabbed some Chex mix, some oreos, some chocolate chip cookies, and hummus with pita bread.

I had a slightly healthier alternative in mind but when I got into the store my plan went to all heck..... So when I got to class and set up what I had brought, this super crazy weird lady in the class, that everyone can't stand, came up to me..... ( The difference between me and the rest of the class is that they all just silently roll their eyes at her and I can't seem to stop from remarking on how much she bugs me!!! It's like an involuntary reflux.... Like how some people might involuntarily throw up a little when they smell sewage........ It's like she is the sewage and I can't help but throw up a little as I exclaim over how much she smells!!!!! )This lady looks like she should be a crack whore scrounging the streets but she is actually some sort of physicist who happens to be extremely obnoxious.

Anyways.... She was another designated snack person and when she saw all the stuff I brought she said in a sickeningly condescending voice.... "hmmmmm...... How nice that you brought all of the junk food!" Boy I don't like her!!!

So back to my beloved Chex Mix..... All that was left of my "junk food" after class was a couple pita pockets and a leftover bag of Chex Mix. As I sat and waited for Tony, I ate my little pretzels and corn chex thingys I was overwhelmed by how deliciously crunchy and tasty they were!!!! Hurrah for Chex Mix!!!!!!! So I don't care if the crazy crack whore lady thinks that they qualify as junk!!!! I love them anyways!!!!!!!

MY BRAIN IS GOING TO EXPLODE!!!!!!

I feel as though my brain is going to explode.... I have too many ideas floating through my brain... I have too much grief to stop crying....My head is aching.... I can't close my eyes without seeing words dancing on my eyelids... I'm already so tired and I can't go to sleep yet.......


MY BRAIN IS GOING TO EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!

The SDAIE Lesson Planning from Hell....

The past two weeks have been especailly crazy because I've been preparing a SDAIE Lesson plan with a group for my How to teach ESL class. Today we finally presented the lesson and I was able to breathe a sigh of relief.

I actually really like the people who were in my group but they needed to hash and rehash everything over and over. They were immensely frusterating. They just have a very different learning style from me. They need to write things down over and over... They need to discuss a subject to death.

All I need, is to write it down once and it's absorbed into my mind. Then we divide up work and go our separate ways to meet a wee bit early the day of our presentation. My way of doing things would be completely unacceptable for these people. They had to rething everything. Every smallest little detail had to be debated and worried about.... It nearly killed me.

We ended up meeting three times and each time we spent around two hours going over details for the presentation. It made me want to bash my head against a wall or drive a nail through my foot just so that I wouldn't be expected to sit through the maddening round about discussions..... Then of course I might have been labeled as insane or at the very least unstable...... hmmmm..... Insane assylums or sitting through mind numbing meetings based on stupidity...... It's a bit of a toss up......

Hallelujah it's over!!!!!!!!!! What was the funniest part was that the people in my group who worried so much and wrote out little scripts and everything ended up being somewhat flustered and didn't do nearly as well as I expected.... I'm not trying to toot my own horn .... oh well- Toot toot!!!! I was damn good.

I led the class activity and people peppered me with all sorts of questions about dominant and recessive genes and I never faltered. I actually got the class laughing and I surprisingly truly knew what I was talking about. Who would have thunk it!!!!!!

Introverted at heart....

Today's class was tremendously interesting. My professor gave us a series of test to complete a learning wheel and I discovered so much about myself! I already knew that I was left brained and more logical in nature, but I have realized so much more about myself today!

My biggest shocker is the fact that I am an introvert!!!!! I love people and have always been relatively friendly so I've always assumed that I was an extrovert, but nothing can be further from the truth! When it was fully explained I realized the truth... I've never entirely understood myself because I never understood that I am an introvert and not an extrovert.

The way it was explained in class today was that extrovert's need people... they feed off of having people around them. They are the people to arrange after parties for the after parties.... They get more excited and energetic with the more people that surround them. An introvert doesn't need people. They are the people who go to a party, have a lovely time and then drive home that night and lock themselves away in a room to read a book or magazine. Introverts need time to recharge before being around people again. They feel exhausted after being with people for a long period of time. They're more introspective and think in their head more than they are capable of verbalizing.

When I talked to my mom tonight I mentioned how shocked I was to discover that I was an introvert and she told me that as a child I was naturally an introvert and that as I got older I adapted coping mechanisms to be more outgoing but that she has always known that I was more of an introverted person. I always thought of introverted people as loners..... the type of people who lock themselves away for days to write bad poetryor something..... When it was fully explained to me I felt such a release! I've always been wondering why I can't seem to say what I think when I think it... I'm always wondering why I'm not as open as I'd like to be. I never fully understood why I hang back... why I don't always initiate friendships and activities... why I think more than I act.... I feel such a release in the knowledge that this is just who I am. It's not that I'm emotionally stunted or socially retarded.... I am just naturally introverted and I don't need to make apologies for who I am!!!!!