My ramblings...

It's almost been five years since Kevin and I were married. It's been eight years since we started dating and nine years since we became friends. The time flies by so quickly. Now here we are with two little kids and more in love than ever. Sometimes, I really have to sit back and marvel at how incredibly blessed I am to have him in my life. I can't even imagine what it would like to not have him.

Kevin's been struggling with a couple personal issues that have really affected me and I've really had to try to step back to absorb the lessons that God is trying to teach us as both a couple and as individuals.

I think most wives would agree with me when I say that we truly feel along with our husbands. When Kevin is upset then I'm upset.... when he is happy I am happy. His triumph's are my triumphs, his sorrow and loss is mine as well. I can't help but feel for him in everything that he does. Sometimes it's hard to sit on the sidelines when your hubby is going through something he really needs to go through alone. It's been a big challenge for me to let him muddle through things on his own because I just feel for him sooo much.

There really is a reality to the Scriptural phrase "one flesh" because when your life and soul is so intertwined with another human being you are bound to feel what eachother feel. I never knew how accurate the Biblical scriptures were when they talked about cleaving to eachother to create one. It's amazing how together and like minded we can be.

I always thought it was kind of cheesy when people said things like "they're my other half" or "soulmate" but really, God designed marriage very specifically to fit those descriptions perfectly. The longer we are married the more I'm able to comprehend the full beauty and meaning of a Christ centered marriage. Even through mistakes or issues I'm learning to rely on God and not on my own understanding. I'm learning so much more about compromise and selflessness now that I'm opening my heart to what God is trying to do in my life.

No matter what may come I know that I am loved, needed, and adored. At the end of the day, when I tuck my babies in their beds and I crawl under the covers next to my Kevin- I am truly, truly blessed.

Baby Mama Name Drama ;)

So the name drama continues.... I feel like I just know what this baby's name is already but Kevin really doesn't like it. He's been trying to bargain. He'll say things like if he can buy a new car then he'll agree or if he can get a giant flat screen tv.... that sort of stuff. The problem is that I really want this to be a decision made by both of us... not just buy him out of his naming rights!!!

But at the same time I've never felt this certain about a name- ever!!!! I'm seriously considering his offer.... ;) Nonetheless, I'm still trying to at least look at other name options but I'm really not liking any of them!!!!

I came up with one new name to add to the list- Emmaline. It's not even in the top 1000 and I think it has a classic sound plus we can call her Emma so Kevin doesn't have a heart attack with something too different. Kevin doesn't even like this name very much, and I'm wondering why I'm putting all this effort into finding something more neutral for the both of us when he still dislikes it and I won't be really happy either.

Kevin's #1 name is Zoe. I just can't really picture our baby girl as a Zoe. I don't hate the name... it just doesn't seem right somehow.

So for the moment... I'm still pushing for Phoebe. My second choice would be Daphne. My third Emmaline... but I'm really afraid that Emmaline is another hormonal insanity mood swing name. Am I really crazy???

The happiest girl in the world!!!

I am so excited!!!!! Kevin got the job!!!! This changes our entire lives! He is going to be a project manager for Scott Electric Co. in San Francisco. He will be working 40 hours a week instead of 60. He will get all weekends and holidays off. He used to work 50 percent of all holidays. He was always on call during all the major holidays. No more of any of that!!!!

I am so excited!!! This changes our entire lives! We aren't going to have to move away from the Bay Area! We're going to be able to stay here.... close to my mom and near the beach. I am just beside myself. God answers me every time I pray. I've been praying about Kevin's whole job situation since Matty was born and God has answered me. I am so thankful. I must be the happiest girl in the world!!!!!

Keeping My Fingers Crossed.....

Kevin has the most amazing potential job opportunity ever! One of his best friends works as a project manager on the Bay Bridge. Apparently they are looking for someone and Rick has suggested Kevin. Kevin will probably be going in for a job interview sometime this week. I have a really good feeling about this! Kevin would be working a maximum of forty hours a week!!!! He has currently been working twelve hour days every day.... It's been averaging out to around sixty hours a week. He's just so exhausted all the time. I'd really love to be with him more. This new job would definately mean a paycut for at least the first year but the overall positive benefits far outweigh the negatives. My fingers are crossed so hard they are almost glued together! I've been praying that Kevin wouldn't have to kill himself working so hard all the time and I'm really hoping that this is God's answer to my prayers!!!!!!!